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DAY 32 - BYE BYE HONEY!; Jared has LEFT THE ISLAND
Topic Started: Aug 10 2015, 03:40 AM (18 Views)
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Oh god where to START for this one lmao THE TRAUMA

THE EXCITEMENT

THE STRESS

THE EXCRUSHIATING PAIN

THE AMAZING FEELING

everythingggggggg that has happened the past little bit had come down to today.

When I saw that Jared posted first in the challenge I almost had a meltdown like I was going to cry because I wanted this plan to work so badly like i was biting my nails up until the vote reveal.

okay anyways lets rewind

So to start the day I actually skyped with paul for an hour, he recorded it, hopefuully not to USE AGAINST ME LIKE I DID TO DAVID LMFAO DSFKJSDLKF

But I think he said he was going to send it to you or something, so hopefully at the very least BROBST, YOUUUU got it.

I hope no one else sees it cause I had to be really convincing that i Love paul and blah blah

I talked alot about the future, which u know, honestly, with paul, its not like the biggest lies or anything. What I said to him is basically what im thinking/want, however I dont know if what I said to him is going to happen really. I talked alot about jared, how i made my decisions previously in this game and some things I did and so on. I definitely pulled a steve and talked way more than paul did, aka steve always talks out his ass and u never have to give him anything, he just spills all his info.

I felt awk with paul cus hes SO FKN AWESOME and it was our first skype so it was like a nervewracking time cus i wanted him to still like me hahahaha BEST BUDDIES DUHH (and he probably thinks i have a crush because I told jason one time that paul was cute or osmething?? LMAO so i do play that up, like to paul i say things that might make him think i semi like him a bit, because if he thinks that, he will think ill never vote him out HAHAHAH, WHEN I ALREADY DID THE ROUND BEFORE THIS LMFAOD JFLKSDF)

SO yeah anyways it was good to chat with him, i was nervous that he was recording it the whole time but knew that if i resisted in any way, that he would lose trust. This was supposed to be our skype call to put everything on the table, to tell the truth, to be real, so tahts what I did. If paul uses it against me then he uses it against me. Im not scared of him telling drago or emily really though.. I think they would be stupid to run to the other side.. they MIGHT.. but I think they would be stupid. People make stupid moves all of the time so i dont feel comfortable nope nope NOPe!

anyways the biggest most interesting thing that I got from paul today revolves around the lane vote.

So I KINDA knew that jason didnt wanna vote lane out, but he showed zero resistance to me so i was like ew peasant jason must not want him to stay tha tbad, so anyways paul told me apparently he liek REALLY wanted lane to stay, and go with some group of six (paul jason drago michelle lane darrah maybe?) and paul told jason that if he did that he would backstab me and jessica and that he thinks me and jessica would never vote against him and that he would rather not do that cus if he did tha the would have to ride that group till the end and that he would hate playing with them. So jason was like ya ya and then didnt vote lane, BUT THEN IT WAS THE NEXT ROUND that michelle started saying that me paul and jessica have a final three. So i remember being like... EW BETCH WHERE THE F DID YOU GET THI SFROM I NEED TO KILL THIS WITH FIRE WHAT ARE U DOING GO BACK TO BED BOO GET OUT OF HERE

So yeah i was so shocked but now things are starting to come together, so jason might of said something along the lines of "I cant do it cus paul will lose trevor and jessica" and then he went to michelle or something and she started spreading it FROM LANE, she said she GOT IT FROM LANE. I remember thinking "how the fuck would lane go" and convinced myself that he was just scrambling and making shit up, but now i see where he got it from, and where michelle got it from.

Its fucked up because i bet paul told jason that shit in confidence and somehow jason sent it over to him... what a shit show.

I know that jason wants me out, he like HAS TO want me out. Ive been against him on so many damn votes like so many like he prob wanted david to stay too, he for sure wanted lane to stay, he wanted drago or michelle to go before kathy i bet, and then the darrah vote i dont even know, he was telling people that im pretty persistent on the darrah vote so they probably should.

Jason is making me SO UNCOMFORTABLE (I love talking to him personally hes so funny like so ridiculous and its cute hearing about his tinder matches, but game wise so uncomfortable) i feel like if jason didnt exist paul would 100% be in my basket but I dont really know where he stands. I have a feeling paul is trying to use me till he doesnt need me anymore, which migh tbe soon. He always tells me final four is me him jason jess and that basically hes like "jess needs to go and then jason cus u pissed everyone off on jury" in my head im like ... hm.... i dont think u will vote jason out.. I DONT BELIEVE YOU.

SO ANYWAYSSSSS

That info was great to know, pieces are starting to fall into place.

Im kinda realizing things that EVERYONE tells me stuff except for jason, and then paul kinda hides the stuff he gets from jason if its major enough.

So this is a problem. I guess michelle doesnt tell me anything but I kinda discredit her (I know I know, I shouldnt, I should butter her ass up, but I have been neglecting that, which ill get to later on how itmight be bad oops)

One funny thing to mention before I get to the jared vote is that paul told me he started to automatically regret his choice to believe in me as soon as lane left and i started to make it look like I was with enzon, like he felt like shit or something LMFAO CAUSE I WOULDNT VOTE DRAGO OUT so it looked bad, but he said he feels better now and shit

I FEEL LIKE because I semi scared him a few rounds ago, that he is kinda like "forgive but not forget" and paul always talks about how I mist people like reel them into my web. Hes NOT stupid, he might think im doing it to him (im not relaly doing it to him) but all the compliments he gives me on how good i am and shit always scare me, if you know how good i am, why arent you targeting me? Oh you probably are? oh okay. LMFAO

Like its kinda like when jess tells me EVERYONE loves me and shit it makes me be like... true or not.. if u think that.. thats scary its like u know mys ecrets. But I trust her I really do, might be my biggest downfall in this game near the end, she might get her own agenda, but fo rnow shes still my number one. (I know last time i said id take paul if it was a final 2 situation, and it hink its true, but it doesnt mean jess isnt my number one, i think she would understand that its more of an easy win (hopefully) against paul lmao

OKAY SO ANYWAYS i lost my train of thought but i think I was done that thought anyways

OKAY SO ONTO THE JARED VOTE. So this whole weekend ive been doing the best acting of my life, acting paranoid with him and shit, basically what I did was acted CLOSER THAN EVER to him, talked about being drunk, fun stuff, talked trash about almost everyone in the game with him, I even told him that IM WORRIED and shit, that im NERVOUS, and that people arent messaging me much, and that they could be blindsiding both ME and JARED, making us seem like a unit (whether he wanted us to be or not, i was looking like a loyal dog all weekend)

I was basically reeling him into that web that paul was talking about ;) LMFAO

So yeah, he would ask me why im nervous and stuff and id always be like "yeah no one talks to me im so sad im scared what if theya re coming fo rus" and then like 2 mins later id be like "NAHhhhhhh I think its literally just paul like its just paul no ones gunna do shit and if they arent talking to both of us i think its just how it is" I was like "do u think ppl pair us together and if theyw ere coming for us they wouldnt tell us both?" and he was like nooo honestly yeah i think we would know.

He literally put his trust in me to tell him if the vote was him, while i was one of the major proponents of this. Iw as basically messaging in our final 6 group chat (everyone minus michelle and jared) saying like "GUYS WE NEED HTIS SO BAD" and trying to think of some ways to do the challenge together and stuff like helping each other, iw as literally pushing this os bad.

I was doing it for many reasons
1. people thought i wouldnt vote jared out only the roun dbefore, i needed to dissaprove this
2. jared is getting too sketchy and voting me out soon
3. if we didnt do it htis round and vote dmichelle out, jared would know somethings up and play his idol the round after

SO I REALLY WANTED IMMUNITY LIKE SO FREAKING BAD. It was so scary when I thought he won. I was so happy when we found out emily won tho like THANK THE LORD.

Jared wrote to me on facebok that he messed up, but the thing with that is that ive lost all trust in him I wasnt even sure if he was telling the truth or not.. I was like he might be fucking lying to me or something to really fuck with me.

So then we get to tribal and you set the deadline and JARED WANTED TO SKYPE. We litearlly skyped like 9:25 or something and the deadline was at 9:40. So yeah Its not like i could be like NOOO LETS NOT. SO I FREAKING SKYPED HIM

I WAS ON SKYPE WITH JARED WHILE THIS WHOLE THING HAPPENED. I RODE THIS PLAN ALL THE WAY TO THE GRAVE. I BASICALLY WAS FACE TO FACE TO HIM WHEN THIS HAPPENED, I HAD TO TALK ABOUT IT, I HAD TO DEAL WITH THE CONSEQUENCES, I HEARD HIS ACTIONS WHEN HE REALIZED THE SCOOP.

IT WAS DAMN DREADFUL AND AWFUL AND I WOULDNT WISH IT ON ANYONE BECAUSE I LOVE JARED HES SOOOOO AWESOME BUT SUCH A SNEAK IN THIS GAME.

It was so difficult for me.

So yeah I was on skype with him and i was just so nervous that if i was typing too much or something he would think im writing other people about the vote, and im bad at multitasking so basically I had to talk to him lots (we were talking about future votes after colby leaves) and at the same time I had to like find a gif and vote his ass out, i was even fucking lying up until the last second iw as lik e"I always post gifs when i vote people out, what do u think of this colby gif i can say hes crawling his way to the jury house bye bitch" LMFAO like i was SO BAD SOSOOSOS BAD LIKE DID I NEED TO DO THAT? NO.. PROBABLY NOT. BUT I WAS CONVINCING AS HELL.

SO anyways the votes happena nd colby vote, then michelle vote, then JARED vote he was like "oh.. what??" im like oh thats weird and then another michelle vote and another jared vote hes like "what theres two michelle votes? two votes fo rme? did you vote colby or what" and at this point i was sitll so like OMFG i was like michelle votes?? mus tbe colby and jason, and yeah i voted colby. I was HOPING THA TMICHELLE VOTED COLBY, IT WAS LIKE MY ONE THING.. I HOPED MICHELLE DID TOO SO I COULD PLAY DUMB.. BUT SHE FUCKING DIDNT... OMFG.

So after the next vote he kinda knew he was like OMG what is happening, you are TOTALLY in on this arent you ic an tell beacuse you are avoidng the question you are totally in on this.

I was like "OMG JARED IM SORRY "

And he was like what happened!??!? Why??!

I was like "you told jason that you wanted me out" and he litearlly like mini lost it a tiny bit he was like

FUCK

WHAT

FUCKK and kinda hit his desk a little bit in frustration

he was like That fucker he CALLED ME and he told me that he wanted you out, and i didnt tell you because I didnt want you to panic.

I still dont believe him to this day and never will, ill ask him at the end of the game honestly, sure jason could have lied and said jared said this blah blah, but jason doesnt seem like a caller, jared seems like the caller, so right there I feel like hes lying lmao.

So yeah he was like super pissed of and i think he swore a couple more times and then I told him how drago told me that jared told him he had the idol, and that he told emily as well, and he was like fuck that probably did me in too.

BASICALLY it was AWFUL being on skype with him when his true emotions were coming out and shit, but it was low key beneficial. I could explain myself in the moment, i fucking put the blame on everyone else, so yeah, he was mad at me, but I think hes more mad at other people, yet he MUST know how much I put into this and lied to him. So it would be interesting, if I make it to the end (still a long road) to see where he votes. Super interesting.

So yeah he was basically like "ok i need to get off this ill talk to you tomorrow" cus he was just super frustrated. Poor guy. I dont fele bad for the game player but I feel bad for the person. the game player in him is AWFUL this season, you cant tell everyone different shit and expect them not to talk?

He needs to take a lesson from me, I tell everyone different things, but tell the people that are more important to me, what I told the other people, and why I did it. If jared came to me and was like "i told jason to vote u but betch its NOT HAPPENING DONT WORRY" then thi smight not of happened, there might be a difffent story. But he sneaks around and doesnt cover his bases.

Sorry westley the weasel, but I think im more of a weasel than you...

KEEP STRESSING HONEY!!


HEHEHEHEHE

So theres more to talk about, freaking crazy night, okay so while i was on skype with jared i ignored almost everything so it didnt look like i was plotting agains thim, and one message i shouldnt of ignored was a message from michelle saying "so is there something you want to tell me?" it came out of no where and was semi rude and ridiclous, so ia ctually only noticed after the vote deadline, and i was like what? waht do u mean?

and then she responded after she got two votes and stuff, and she was so frustrated. I straight up told her that the reason she got votes is beacuse of jared, because jared told like 4 people tha the wants to be at the end with them + michelle and that i tmade it seem like michelle is with him, and that if jared were to use his idol, people wanted his biggest ally gone.

She was like super super pissed off and was like "thanks for telling me but im super mad" and all this shit, she was saying she was gunna investigate basically hahaha OH GOD.

OH QUICK REWIND ILL JUST MENTION IT CUS I THINK IT WAS SKETCHY BUT ITS SOMETHING TO MENTION: when we were voting drago asked me and emily if he should vote for colby because it would please michelle, and then me and emily were like WTF NO NO NO DONT DO THAT IT WOULD MAKE IT 3-3-2 (cus we thought michelle might vote colby), so its sketchy drago wanted to do that for asecond

anyways back to michelle, so yeah drago wrote to me and emily saying hta tmichelle is mad at someone, and that she voted jared because someone must of tipped her off (she wasnt supposed to know)

and drago seems super concerned, you can tell hes like besties with michelle, i think theres more I dont know about when he gave her the necklace and stuff, like its surprising I know, but I might not know everything thats happening in this game. Things are kinda popping up and im like "OHHH this makes sense now" but still like.. whatever deal drago has with michelle.. i dont like it.

SO ANYWAYS drago is worried that michelle is mad and wants to know who tipped her off, and while this convo was happening, jess wrote to me that jason tipped michelle off, so i was like oh dear god OF COURSE it was jason, the person with other motives. So then I didnt tell drago, but he was basically like "it has to be someone from the other side, they did it to try and get her vote this round ot turn on us"

and I was like... shit.. hmmmm interesting.

So this round im going into it with STRONG caution, because its the first round that I dont have that giant jared target in my way of being voted out, sure theres drago and even emily and stuff but I am a HUGE threat at this point socially and if people arent giong to mention my name yet, they are idiots. So im super scared liek SO SO SCARED and just hoping i will say the right things and make the right choices over the next few days.

In marquesas it was the final 7 that I pushed SO HARD for the neleh vote, and people just did it to give me what I wanted, and then I went out in final 6 because it was easy for them to get me.

I CANNOT LET THIS HAPPEN AGAIN. I cannot. Like I cant.

So yes, if i got my way, michelle would be the next to go.

HOWEVER, i dont know if I should even push this, because clearly people are trying other shit, so migh tneed to lay low.

So jason clearly has motives with michelle.. I dont know who he wants to vote out, but im assuming he wants michelle then him pual and jess to vote someone. It could be me, HOWEVER im hoping jess and paul wouldnt vote me, if they vote me, ill be shocked, like soo shocked. BUT i do recognize it could happen. I would hope if they pull michelle in that they would at least vote drago or emily not me. If they do that, its not the end of the world at all it really isnt, as long as I dont go at this point.

I hinted ot jessica that I would like michlle out, and to jason actually too, and they both said they are down for that, jess did more because she is more revealing cus she trusts me, jason just kinda was like yeah sounds good lmao

SO YEAH if jason knows im not targeting him but emily and drago might, if he did win michelle over, and jess doesnt wanna vote with enzon this round, then hopefuully I can sitll stay.

ANother interesting thing is that I think drago and maybe even emily is going to want to use michelle for OUR SIDE to get out someone over there such as jason or something...

I can see both sides wanting to use michelle, however I feel like im also on both sides, i feel like the other side (hopefully) wouldnt target me thi snext round, but they prob wont just die down and vote michelle either, when they could use her for their advantage to gain numbers this round.

So i feel stupid if i push a michelle vote, on both sides, cus both sides might want to use her.

IM NERVOUS I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO.. super nervous.

I would rather Drago go over emily, and then I would rather jason go over paul or jess obviously. So i hope if michelle is a swing vote, that my side votes jason or jasons side votes drago or something, if that has to happen this round and michelle goes the round after that ill be fine.

If michelle goes with them and they become final four tho id be so sad like UGH NO!

SOOOO yeah this is scary, im hoping drago can keep up his michelle charade and they vote together for real this time, and that I find out what i shappening. If i see any opportunity to vot emichelle tho thats my preference.

If she goes, and then the sides fight, i can pick a side and do damage, id probably vote drago out, and then hope that emily and jess would want to take out jason after that, and then hope that jess and paul would want to vote emily out after that.

maybe I should re evaluate that plan tho.. hmm...

paul is an easy win (i think) at the end... so maybe... if I want to make sure jess takes me.. it shouldnt be me her paul in the end (cus lets be real she might win immunity) .. so hmm... this is interesting. I need to make sure I play for myself and I play smart, I can taste the end of the game, I tasted it in marquesas though too and that was me thinking way to far ahead and it screwed me up... this time we will see... UGH im so scared but so excited..

I WANNA DO GOOD! I WANNA BEAT MY BEST PLACEMENT!! which was 6th!!

Two more votes and I do that!! AHHH

I CAN DO IT I CAN DO IT!! yikessss im so scared.

OKAY DEEP BREATHS, LAY LOW, VOTE IN MAJORITY, DONT PUSH MICHELLE, YOU DONT NEED TO CONTROL EVERY VOTE!!!

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