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Day 34 - UPHILL BATTLE 2 the END; having some doubts
Topic Started: Aug 12 2015, 03:43 AM (29 Views)
Greg
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Final 6... I made it... I MADE IT TO FINAL 6.

Thats how good I did in marquesas too, and I remember being so proud to make it so far and so excited.

I know that I can do better than that this time, I DESERVE to do better than that this time. I WANT TO DO BETTER!!!!

I feel happy to make it this far so far, but it doesnt feel satisfying enough. I need to win. I need to figure this shit out.

OKAY SO

ive been a bit freaked out today ever since michelle won IMMUNITY

LIKE DAMN HOW DID SHE DO THIS. I think she must of explained her answers better than me, or the penny one i had was wrong or something idk i just said like 2 words and was stuttering in the video i dont even remember what I said, all I know is i was absolutely crushed and devastated when michelle won.

Shes actually really cruel to me like I cant stand her gameplay AT ALL.

She didnt speak to me ALL DAY today so then I wrote to her like around 2 pacific time or something and was like so who do you think we should vote out or something like just being up front, because she thinks we never talk game until the vote, and the response I got from her was basically like "hope your day is great im going to volleyball so we will chat later but who do you want to vote?" Aka ONCE AGAIN FOR THE 1008th TIME SHE IGNORED MY THING. I fucking ignored her for the rest of the damn day! So over her bullshit sorry I've given you names about the vote in the past michelle and you LITERALLY MAKE ME DISGUSTINGLY SICK BY HOW LITTLE YOU GIVE.

YOU DID THIS IN SCOTLAND TOO, CHECK MY FKIN CONFESSIONAL I HATED HOW DISGUSTINGLY BORING MARCUS WAS AND HOW HE WAS SO BUSY AND NEVER SAID NAMES AND SHIT.. LIKE STOP YOU ARE PLAYING WORSE THIS TIME. Sure a better placement but its your time to GO NEXT! Im so frustrated.

So then she won immunity and she said the most RIDICULOUS THING TO ME EVER. Look at this

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She has NO RESPECT for me, just because you won the immunity does not mean you can be so bossy, I have given her so many chances, like SO MANY. I warned her when paul said he wanted to vote her out because she never talks and stuff, I think it was the vote that lane got out, because I thought maybe michelle could be useful SOMEWHAT, and THATS THE ROUND THAT SHE TOOK THAT INFO AND INSTEAD STARTED TARGETING PAUL!!! LIKE STOP... I was telling you to go talk to him so u guys can fuckin get along, but all its done is make you guys feud even more. Makes me sick.

ANYWAYS Im just so frustrated now because im having second guesses about my end game.

I KNEW I WANTED DRAGO GONE after michelle, so its fine that he left, super super super fine. I made sure as soon as michelle won it I told jason immediately that "idc what anyone says, im voting drago" so it looked like i was really with him and paul and jess, i didnt want him to think i was just doing it beacuse I felt i needed to. I wanted it known that I was doing that.

SO ANYWAYS the reason im kinda bummed out is ive been hearing rumors, and they are complete rumors and I have zero idea if they are true or not but from my guess is that darrah is talking to players in the game or at least asking like why or how things happened, not sure if its against the rules, or if hes actually doing it, but from what I heard its that I look stupid and that im always on the outside of the votes.

I COULD SEE IT.. thats why i kinda think the rumor is true.. Like I could see a jury house thinking im stupid as hell and just a floater and always voting where people want.

I CAN SEE IT AND U KNOW WHAT... I WANT THEM TO THINK THAT! I want people to think im so stupid and goofy, of course I want that, thats what ive been doing THIS ENTIRE GAME. No one knows the method to my madness except for the people im really close with which is paul and jess, and even paul doesnt know everything.

So basically yeah Im getting what I want, im looking stupid in the jurys eyes, but now that im tthinking about it... im kinda like... FUCK im not the BEST speech writer so its like DAMMIT... if i make it to the end with someone like jess or even paul who can write good and comprehend themselves.. they might be able to discredit me and make people think I am that stupid guy they WANT me to be.

My speech would be a DAMN MESS but that speech is the ONLY THING that would allow me to beat any of these people left. That speech is SO important. Ive been under the radar sneaking behind everyones back, and i mean EVERYONE well not jess, but i do talk shit about her (but i tell her im doing it so she doesnt get pissed) but yeah since im under the radar people will only realize my game play if I TELL THEM.

Fuck its going to be hard... so hard...

im wondering if jess is loving mine and her relationship... does she plan on taking credit for everything in the end? She soaks my ego up SOOO SO SOOSOSOSO well and says things like "I want you to win so bad!!" and shit. I know shes playing to win like everyone is, but shes really good at making me feel loved and stuff.

SO THIS IS SO DIFFICULT.. the more I think end game.. the more im like... is paul and jess really the best option? Is it really?

If Sairo votes for Sairo and Enzon votes for Enzon, (lets pretend) so say its final 3 and im with jess and paul, the jury would be 7 people and that would mean its 4 enzon and 3 sairo so... if they voted on old tribal lines I could get votes.. would jared/michelle vote for me? IDK.. drago and emily? I think so... but its not for sure

Kathy/Darrah/Jason - I think Darrah for sure jess, Jason for sure paul, and kathy.. probably jess.

So it comes back to jared and michelle... i could see BOTH of them voting for Jess... HMMM.. this is a DISASTER meaning I might only get andrea and dragos votes...

NOW IF jess and paul were in the jury I think they would almost for sure vote for me... this is so shitty... Its almost like should it be emily me paul? Emily me jess? OH GOD I DONT KNOW

BROBST!!! IT SEEMS SO HARD SOOO SO SO HARD

Im so scared of actually getting to the end and then failing so bad with the votes, people might not be able to realize my crazy gameplay, it all depends if I can portray it... so anyways yeah im freaked out and second guessing everything.

So its bittersweet, my strategy (looking dumb and goofy) might be working to get me to the end, but will it get me a win? FUCK! dunno!

OKAY SO lets go back a bit tho

So Drago is gone, he seemed kinda pissed, hes like "u guys got rid of the best person in the game" i wrote "7th best" as a joke LOLOL idk if he took it too well, im bad with jury management but also im kinda good, it was a joke so hopefully hes not mad.

Drago always seemed like he knew his time was coming, and that when it came he would "take a bullet" before me and emily, which is exactly what he did, except the thing is, it didnt have to be like that.

BUT I WANTED IT TO BE LIKE THAT...

Im so curious on whats going through emilys mind honestly... Earlier today we talked about the future and I was talking to her and I was like "so once michelle goes, who goes?" and she said drago or jess, and then i started to steer her towards the drago vote. IDC WHAT ANYONE SAYS OR WHAT SHE SAYS, she is doing whatever the fuck I want her to, or she has the same deal with jess as me so my plans work for her, except she did offer jess up so i dont think she has a deal with jess.

So yeah emily is like ok so drago then jason and then jess for vote order which is what I told her, and shes like all aboard it, so im glad we had that convo because it made it easier to just get the drago vote going super quick without having to worry if emily would be mad.

I also talked to jason earlier in the day and he started throwing jessica under the freaking bus! LIKE SO MUCH,

I forgot what he said but im actually starting to freak out some more BECAUSE I JUST WENT BACK TO RE READ IT...

He asked me if it should be steve or jess first...

WTF....

Kinda same thing emily said... fuck fuck fuck what if emily is gunna go with jason and thats why she said yes to the plan to get jason out after drago (well michelle needs to go first now)

this is too damn much for me im going crazy.

ANYWAYS I told jess right away about both convos and she is actually so pissed off at jason beacuse of it, which is good, and its good cus she knows he cant go until final 5

I think jason is probably getting credit on the jury too... stupid fuckers hahahahahah UGH JASON DOES SHIT ALL.

The funny thing with jason is he THINKS hes running it, HE THINKS hes running me.

KEEP STRESSING HONEY as jared would say!!! HAHAHAHAHHA

Jason literally thinks that I am wrapped around pauls waist and will do anything paul says, like legit.

They think im a fucking fool who will vote with them.

I NEED THIS MICHELLE VOTE TO HAPPEN. I NEED IT TO HAPPEN. BECAUSE I WANT TO BE THE REASON JASON LEAVES. I dont fucking care if paul is mad at this point, I want to take jason down with the help of jess and emily. If michelle somehow wins immunity AGAIN ill freak the fuck out but I dont think lighting strikes twice SORRY HONEY - KEEP STRESSING!!

So for now, yes im freaking out about who will be at the end with me, but I think its too late to have any other options. This is ALL STARS there are no goats to bring, so I have to fight against the BEST. If I make it there with jess then Im telling you it will be a WAR!!!

But I have to make it through these votes next, especially since sunday I wont be here because of my concert, so in final 5, a very important round, ill be one of the 4 vulnerable people.

FREAKING CRAZY!

Assuming I CAN GET THROUGH THURSDAY!

I do think that MIchelles awful game play pushes people to want her out, I think she does NOTHING to help herself, and that every day she actually just gets worse and worse and WORSE!

Jason and paul both desperatly want her out, and so does jess and even emily.

Michelle will still be the next vote, it needs to happen, we need to take the trash out so we can get to the real game moves which is coming at final 5...

Even the drago vote was pretty easy.. he thought he was so connected but we all had plans with each other before he even came around, sucks that friendships otuside of the game was his downfall, beacuse he came in and made great relationships really quick, but we just had previous ones before the game, such as my relationship with jess, paul, and even emily.

So yeah, going forward, I need to stay calm first of all, I cant freak out, I need to keep playing my gameplay but I need to really start planting seeds to the jury as people leave, and I need to start thinking of a speech.


SEE MAYBE NOW IM GETTTING TOO COCKY THINKING OF SPEECHES. K I wont do that, ill take it vote by vote, ill make sure people still hate michelle and want her gone, and then I will make sure that emily and jess are on board for a jason vote. If jason wins II... it has to be... emily? Jason and Paul might vote jess and emily might as well... at that point I might have to vote paul out with the girls... I would want to go to the end with the girls over jason tho so that would be the final 3.

OH GOD THERES SUCH GOOD PEOPLE TO BE AGAINST.

I need to just smarten up, play smart for the end of the game, then just TELL people how I played my game if I happen to make it that far! Fingers crossed!

DEEP BREATHS... DEEP BREATHS...

SJDFLKSDJFLKDSJFLK


Okay goshhhhh okay. Tomorrow will be okay. THis round will be okay.. no meltdowns please just STAY CALM AND HOPE MICHELLE LEAVES. I hate when people target jess by the way, I think jason and Emily would have voted her out already if I said jess before drago, I honestly do. So people need to realize that im helping her a TON. I really am.

I dont know if my name has EVER come up for a vote, while jess I have to keep deferring people away from her.

IM PLAYING JUST AS GOOD IF NOT BETTER THAN HER! UGH

we will see

I love her tho hahaha SHOUT OUT TO JESS


AND ALSO SHOUT OUT TO JARED CUS ITS HIS BDAY AND IM STARTING TO FEEL BAD SENDING HIM OUT BEFORE HIS BDAY, i dont regret it, he needed to go, but DAMN JARED YOU ARE AWESOME HOPE UR BDAY IS GLAMOROUS HOPE ITS FUN HOPE U PARTY HOPE U GET EVERYTHING U ASK FOR.

My birthday is freaking FRIDAY so hopefully im still in the game by then and I dont get karma for doing that to jared lmao.

k im gunna go now but I think i covered most stuff if not everything...

oh i was gunna say its funny how jason said maybe jess before drago, cus he even said he didnt say it to paul yet cus he doesn tknow if he would be down fo rit, and its funny cus i cant see paul voting jess yet.. paul seems to be loyal and want to do comfy moves.. so its funny jason would possibly be comign ot me before paul at this point.. who knows if thats true.. but i shouldnt be too scared that jess might get turned on beacuse I think jason brought that idea to me before he talked to paul who will probably steer him away from the idea like i did.. unless I dont know paul at all..

OH GOD IDK

ok good night

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Shes actually really cruel to me like I cant stand her gameplay AT ALL.

Awww poor Greg didn't get what he wanted immediately? ;) You were frustrated at Kimmi, b/c I wouldn't tell you my answers & my time stamp. I wasn't really concerned about the time stamp - I was trying to chat with people.

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"hope your day is great im going to volleyball so we will chat later but who do you want to vote?" Aka ONCE AGAIN FOR THE 1008th TIME SHE IGNORED MY THING. I fucking ignored her for the rest of the damn day! So over her bullshit sorry I've given you names about the vote in the past michelle and you LITERALLY MAKE ME DISGUSTINGLY SICK BY HOW LITTLE YOU GIVE.

Perhaps it's because you ran to others with information & I didn't trust you as much as you thought I did? Perhaps the ONLY name you told me what everyone else was saying. YOu never said I wanted so & so out....other than that night. So...please GURLLLLL Do not act as if you ever told me who you wanted to vote out. Because that didn't happen. We spend out time talking about Big Brother & Burton eye candy. ;) Ohhh wait, was I not suppose to say that? Ohhhh that's right...I have a big mouth. ;)

And....I disgust you with MY game play? LMAO!!!! Hmmmm...intriguing.

WERK IT!!!!!!!
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Im pretty sure burton knows that he is EYE CANDY GURLL!!!! LMAO


But for real I think this game was going no where between me and you because of two reasons:

1. pre season I asked you who was playing that you knew and I told you that I know jessica jared paul and emily or whoever is playing and I said what about you and you ignored me
2. It was obvious that you and david had a bond and it was unspoken of so it was hard to trust you when you were with him someone who I wanted out the most probably out of anyone

so Yeah im sure i never told you who im voting and so on, but neither did you, we were always going in circles lmao
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