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Final Confessional
Topic Started: Feb 17 2014, 09:17 AM (20 Views)
Michelle
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Hello Brobst and players,

I know that I promised to make a final confessional video to put a cap on
this season of Survivor. I'm not going to do so for a few reasons, one of which
is that by this point everyone should have read Brobst's own confessional which
breaks down and describes every aspect of Survivor Bangkok. There's no reason
to provide analysis for what everyone already knows.

So, this final confessional will be an apology of sorts.

I started playing Brobst's online Survivor games a few years ago...and at this
point I have played eight total. I have had varying degrees of success...from going
out early to going out last. I have never been voted out first, and I have
never won the game. Generally I go out a bit after the merge, usually
by either some weird Survivor twist, or though some sort of game-destroying
mistake.

For this game I tried a new strategy. Fly under the radar. I referred to
my game as the Sandra Diaz-Twine strategy. She has played twice and has
won twice, so I figured that if it worked for her, then I should at least give it a
shot. I didn't realize two things until now though...Sandra's strategy only
works if you get to the finals, and you cannot win immunities if you want to
play like this. If Sandra had been voted out at some point after the merge
in her two seasons, her gameplay would have been an afterthought. Instead,
she is considered by me to be one of the, if not the greatest Survivor players
ever.

So what happens when you try to emulate a playing style but don't succeed
at it. When referring to this one, you work your way through the game
thinking that you are making good solid moves and earning some form of
respect from what you are doing. I saw myself as the snake waiting for my
moment to strike. All the while, the other snakes in the game were striking
the entire time...over and over. While this is perceived by many, including
myself, as good gameplay...the move in the shadows under the radar is
not. In essence, I convinced myself that I was playing a good strong game,
while in fact...I was playing probably the shittiest game I've ever played
here.

Even now, it's difficult to fathom how I could make the merge, win a bunch
of immunities, make it to the final 4, and still be playing a shitty game. But
I was. After reading Brobst's analysis, I know that to be certain.

What's worse...I talked alot of shit in this game, and bragged about the
moves that I was making. I clearly didn't understand any of the dynamics
of the game. Through my messages, my gameplay, and my confessionals I
made a complete fool of myself. After reading Brobst's confessional, I am
humiliated and embarrassed about how I played this game.
At least PG tried. She played like a crazy person, but at least she played. I
didn't even do that. I waited around for things to happen, waited for my
chance to make moves, waited for people to come to me...instead of making
things happen, making moves, and going to the other players in this game.

In reality, I should have gone home the night that Clay did. It was a mistake
that I didn't. Judd, Yauman, Chad, and Burton should have had the chance
to play this game more...and at this point I truly feel that I took and wasted
a spot in this game that another person probably should have taken.

That being said, I am sorry to anyone that I talked bad about in this game, and
anyone that I was responsible for having a part in going home. You deserved
to keep playing way more than I did.

This might seem over the top or melodramatic...but you have to understand...
I have put alot of myself into these games. As a player who has played alot,
I have sacrificed time in order to play this game, and so it's not so silly to me. I have really
enjoyed my time playing, and hope that I am remembered from previous games
and previous strategies over this one. This is for definitely the final time that
I will play.

Thanks again to Brobst and the other players. You have managed to
create an amazing experience, one that I have really enjoyed being
involved in.

Cheers!
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