- David
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So Judd left, which is great. I really felt he was a threat to my game. Howard is starting to become my new Judd, though. Howard could end up becoming valuable to someone. Howard and Elissa arguing with each other is amazing because Howard was the main person I thought would nominate me if he won HoH. But I think his main target now would be Elissa. He could be trying to suck up to Aaryn and Kaitlin now since he and Elissa are arguing about what each other did and didn't say about Aaryn, but I really hope that isn't the case. I need people to be actively wanting those girls gone. I know throwing challenges this late in the game can be risky, but I honestly am considering going back to throwing again. If this was Survivor, I would be trying to win every immunity challenge from now until the end. But this is Big Brother, and whenever I win HoH, I'm not eligible to compete for the next one. Right now I feel that I am nobody's target. I don't know that for sure. There might someone who wants me gone, but it seems like every person in the game has someone else they'd prefer to target. I think I would rather allow someone else to have HoH this round so I am eligible to compete next round, when I could possibly be competing against jurors whom I had a hand in eliminating. I mean, it's not so much "throwing" in this kind of format as it is in a Survivor format. It's more strategic in Big Brother, because you are basically choosing which round you want to have control in.
- David
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The truth about Elissa is that she really is shady. By being aligned with her, I can actually tell that she is the type of player who will look out for only herself, and tell people whatever they want to hear, even if it means lying her ass off like there's no tomorrow. She was apparently supposed to be close with Helen, and then she claimed she had voted Helen out to protect herself. I don't know if she was lying about her vote, or if she actually threw Helen under the bus. She never told me she was voting that way, either, because she was unsure about my loyalty. The fact she would question my loyalty when I've been dedicated to her since round 1, and re-assured her of that so many times, just makes me wonder if she has trust issues because she is not a trustworthy person, herself. I am just mentioning all of this now because of the fight going on between her and Howard, but I've felt this way about her for a long time now. It's just that I made a commitment to her, and I just feel like continuing to go through with it  . At least I can say I tried to play an honest and loyal game after this is done.
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