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Round 15; I'm probably leaving
Topic Started: Apr 26 2012, 03:16 AM (361 Views)
Zidane
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I really hate not knowing how the voting went down. Like I have no idea if CoD and Shan voted with us or not. It's impossible to tell, so it makes it impossible to know whether to trust them or not. Really, I think those two would be morons to get rid of me and Terra next. MAYBE it would make sense to get rid of one of us, but they'd have to use the other to split up Gilgamesh/Kuja at final 5. Ugh. I'm totally faving Terra in the Arena tomorrow. I can feel it.
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I really have no right casting a vote based on any sort of personal feelings, if I happen to be on the jury.  And the former is just general malaise.


Ughh stop being so apathetic. Your apathy for this game is so frustrating to me. Why can't you just self-vote instead of casting like 7 votes for me? It's so not fair that I'm probably going to leave over you when you clearly could not care less. -_-


It frustrates me too. I told you guys to vote me out instead of Sephy dammit. But as long as I'm in the game and my allies need me, I'm not gonna fuck them over. I know I'm a shitty player. I know that. But I don't want to fuck up the games of people who have kept me around (admittedly, as a goat and an easily manipulated vote), so I'm sticking around as long as I have to.


Kuja is the worst fucking person alive. I HATE this kind of player. Just fucking quit.
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So what I'm attempting is this.

CoD says she's voting with us this round. Who knows if she's lying. Hopefully not. But this plan all hinges on her, so hopefully she isn't full of shit.

I'm proposing that me, Terra, and Shantotto all vote for Gilgamesh. My vote, as well as a number of Terra's, will get nullified. It should hopefully still be enough to get him into the Arena. CoD votes for Kuja. They won't nullify her votes, because they think she's with them. That gets enough votes on Kuja, that he would be the second Arena duelist. I assume he has the other idol, so it gets flushed. That leaves me or Terra facing Gilgamesh in the Arena, which is fine. As long as we get one of them in there, as opposed to me vs Terra, we're good.

This probably won't work. Too much trust has to be put in CoD. Honestly, it would probably be so much better if CoD and Terra traded items, and Terra nullified a bunch of shit, while CoD cast like 9 votes on Gilgamesh. But I don't trust CoD enough for that.
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Fuck Ultimecia for postponing this duel until tomorrow. I want Terra back.
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This game is getting to me I think. I've been annoyed and pissed off a lot in this game, because I've had a lot of shitty shit happen to me. But I've never really been frustrated or felt hopeless like I do right now.

Most of it is because of the items. I know I complain about them a lot and I probably sound like a broken record. But they just make shit impossible. Right now there are two clear sides. Me/Terra vs Gilgamesh/Kuja. We've put CoD/Shan in the swing position, and I have no way of knowing if they're lying to me or not. In a normal game, the vote count would be the obvious way of knowing if they're with me or against me. But with the items, it's impossible to know. And it's fucking driving me crazy. CoD has lied to me in the past. She told me Kuja was leaving Chaos, but then I left. But she's also been honest with me. She told me that she was voting for me when Seph left, because she wanted my idol out. She also told me that she's playing both sides... but she's really with me.

But ugh. It's fucking impossible to know whether she's lying or not. I won't know until tomorrow when the votes are revealed. And even then... I might not know. And that's so frustrating. I just have a really bad feeling that it's going to be me versus Terra in the Arena tomorrow, with nothing I can do about it. And not knowing what Shan/CoD are going to do is the most frustrating thing. I HATE being at the mercy of other people. I don't even know how I got into the position. I could go to Gilgamesh and offer a truce to take out Shan and CoD, but he'd never go for it. He'd just rat me out to them, and then I'd be fucked for certain. As it is, I'm pretty sure I'm fucked, but it's not for certain.

I'm just picturing myself leaving tomorrow, and thinking how frustrated I'd be to be outlasted by Gilgamesh, who's so fucking cocky and disgusting. I HATE him. He's so fucking certain that I'm being played by CoD/Shan. And it would kill me if he was right and I was wrong. My dignity wouldn't be able to deal with it. And I'd be outlasted by Kuja. Someone that doesn't give two shits about this game. The only reason he hasn't quit yet is because he doesn't want to leave his allies in a bad position. And I'd be outlasted by Shantwatto, who's a complete fucking joke and doesn't deserve to be here still at ALL. I can deal with being outlasted by Terra and CoD. I respect them. But the other three, I just can't stand it.

Fuck items. Fuck not being able to ever know if people are being honest with you. Fuck this hopeless feeling that I have that me and Terra are screwed tomorrow. I really hope I'm wrong and I can come back tomorrow and just laugh at how disgusting and pessimistic this confessional is. Maybe I'll try praying again. It worked last time.
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:crying I guess all I can say is numbers are still numbers and there is only so much you can do with items. If people are with you, you'll make your plans work. If they're not and you're outnumbered then it likely won't matter how many items you have at your disposal. But I totally understand the frustration.

I too hope you're just being overly pessimistic and that your dignity doesn't take a hard hit. :<3
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Ultimecia is taking too long. Automatic boot plz.
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Firion
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She is :alien

Idk what's taking her so long to show up.
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Zidane
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Also the fact that nobody is even online PMing today makes me think that Gilga/Kuja/Shantwat/CoD just have all of their shit figured out, and don't think they need to spend any time at the board today.
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People who avoid the board <///3

Unless good TV is on ^_^ Then that's more important than PMing.
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Lightning
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I am an expert at avoiding boards ^_^
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Zidane
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I don't even want to play this game anymore. There's no point.
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Your pandering in main is disgusting.
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Zidane
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Shut up bitch, and get the hell out of my confessional. If you knew anything about my relationship with Terra, you'd know it isn't pandering at all. I wouldn't even have to pander to her to get her vote. I know I already have it. Leave my confessional.
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Oh and what was you relationship with Alina like? I thought you play to win, not for loyalty, friendship or love. Are you telling me you would have willingly lost this game to Terra?
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