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| Topic Started: Jan 13 2013, 04:53 AM (49 Views) | |
| Austin | Jan 13 2013, 04:53 AM Post #1 |
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Oh Holly... The sweetest of the sweet. You and I are really starting to talk more now. But you have told people how nice you think I am. You most represent the way I truly believe this game should be played. With your heart. With honor. With integrity. Lifting up others. If I weren't playing this character, you would be my F2. I want you to win most. It kills me when people say they think I am honest here in Survivor Germany. I am that way in real life. When I lie, I blush. Never have been able to. And I see such real people like you. And I don't want to hurt anyone. I have a story.... Maybe a little guidance to share back. Don't change a thing about you. Yes. I live in Oklahoma City only a few miles from Brobst. A few years back, I shot a local movie.... A really bad one.... Where four of us donned ski masks and gloves and got guns and had to film a little heist in the alley behind a warehouse. Long story short, our police escort wasn't with us and an error from dispatch sent dozens of police cars to our location. And right before the director said, Action... I found myself staring down the barrel of a police handgun. I just knew, if I could just take the mask off that everything would be ok. That he would see I was a good person. I feel that way right now. I want to take the mask off before someone gets hurt. But my real point is this. After everything settled down. The police told us how upset they were. That they had their finger on the trigger.... Ready to shoot.... And with this happening, they knew that the next time they were put in a similar situation, they would remember.... And doubt.... And act differently than they are. Of everyone, I don't want that to happen to you. Your instincts.... Trust them always. Don't let my stupid charade make you think differently. You are such an open and caring person from what I have seen in four days. Keep that. Close. Always. I know we will be talking a lot more. And I don't know what Austin can really say. But I saw you are unique. You are special. |
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| Austin | Jan 17 2013, 08:48 AM Post #2 |
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You are one smart cookie. And you and I could strategize together better than anyone else. Darn you for talking more to Matty. That's the last thing I need. LOL. Just promise me you won't start trusting him... ![]() But it just illustrates how good you are at assessing what you need to be doing. At not taking at face value anything anyone says to you. The biggest downfall people have in this game is trusting their alliance so blindly that they don't stay in touch with everything happening around them. You got the brains in this tribe. That's for sure. So - while I appreciate the very personal connection Kim and I seem to have. I LOVE the strategic connection we have. It would be a tough pick between you two in the finals. And I'm sure it will change every day from here on. But I love the way you play this game. With your heart and your mind. That's refreshing. |
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| Austin | Jan 27 2013, 08:01 PM Post #3 |
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Holly, It has been the best being here with only you to really talk to the last couple days. If I could do things all over, I'd lock you in for real. But, you'll be able to see that a few days ago, I had you pegged to go out at six... and just with what we've been through in the last two days I am/was (depending on a vote) ready to take you to final 3 or 4... Only time will tell - but you are absolutely the kind of player I want to play with. If I wasn't trying to be such a jerk this time around - man I wish I could tell you everything... Your unwavering loyalty, your honesty, and you standing up for those you are allied with. I admire you - and the way you play this game. I hope you can take it all the way. Because you haven't done anything shady in this game that I know of. Your heart is open to everyone. You have great relationships with every player. I look so forward to letting you know the real me once this is over. If I go home tonight - I hope you can pull this off and survive all the way. I believe in you. |
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| Austin | Feb 3 2013, 01:41 PM Post #4 |
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Getting that strange feeling again - so time to write personal messages to the people I adore. Holly - You've got me 100% on your side now. Erinn's sudden distrust of me. And the time we have spent together have convinced me. You are an amazing woman. Your compliments hit me at just the right moment - right when I feel I don't deserve them. Every thing I say to you - I mean absolutely. I'm not trying to make you feel better or help you through a rough day. I feel a tight bond with you. And the fact that you would actually tell me NOT to vote with you to save myself - wow. That's your boldest move my friend. And I'm all yours. Love you Holly. I can't wait to talk more after the game. I hope you forgive my little charade here in Germany. I'm gonna have plenty of people who don't want to talk to me after this is over (yeah - Erinn is gonna hate me) - but something tells me - we'll be friends for a long time to come. |
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| Austin | Feb 19 2013, 04:21 PM Post #5 |
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Hey Holly, I know - it's not fair to write once you are out of the game. But I want to leave you something that you can read after. You played an amazing game. And you were not going to be the one voted out on Sunday. I promise you - it was going to be Erinn... But you were the backup - the thought of Frosti being backup was deception by Kim and I. I do think you are pretty darned amazing - you remind me SO MUCH of Joel from Borneo. The person who stood by my side to the very end. As close as Joel and Gretchen were, there was a little slip at the end - but we are BFFs now - emailing each other every day. I hope we can get that level of friendship too. My goal in this game was to make every alliance I could. And to keep every option there so I always had an end game. I never intended to upset you or make you angry. I would feel the same. But please know that what we said to each other was real in this game. Austin's feelings for you were real - even if his character wasn't. I do mean it - you are an amazing person first and an amazing player second. And unfortunately you and Erinn got the titles of 'Most Threatening' to win - and we took you out. Anything I can do to take the sting away - I will. I really do care about you. I know you know that at least. |
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| Holly | Feb 25 2013, 06:34 PM Post #6 |
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Lane What can I say that I have not said a hundred times before...you are AWESOME my friend and definately my BFF for life! For those that might not know the story of Allan and Lane it all began in Back to Borneo where a day one alliance started the foundation of a true and lasting friendship. Sure we had a slip up...yeah I was gonna flip on Lane at final 5 because there was no way I was going to beat him. Thankfully that vote never happened that way thanks to a well timed immunity from Lane. It truely was a momentary lapse of judgement that I quickly tried to shrug off. Neither of us made to the end of that game (Lane went at four and me at three) but honestly it didnt really matter. This time around I was completely sold on Austin and even though I knew me and Austin in the final two would most likely end in Austin winning...I didn't care. You were gonna be my final two not matter what from the time the BFA fell appart you were always my in my final three and for most of the latter part of my time in Germany you were my only final two. Soooo....I duped you in Borneo and you duped me in Germany...so WE'RE FINAL EVEN, lol. I will not feel guilty about turning on you in Borneo anymore. Now the important question did I know you might be playing this game? Honestly at the beginning I thought you might be. In our work emails you made mention of how you had been "on you PC alot lately"...knowing you are not a real PC person outside work (he hates to text and is NEVER on Facebook) I remember thinking..."Could Lane be playing too". I looked for signs. High and low. For a brief minute I thought Momma Kim might be you because of the way she would end her messages...HUGZ. ((Gretchen always ended her messages to Joel with a HUGS)) But after talking with MK more I quickly ruled that out and didnt think it was you. Your Austin disguise was so complete...I was totally fooled. Imagine my jaw hitting the floor with the cast reveal (it was truely funny). I had to laugh again reading this when you compared Holly to Joel. So funny and so ironic. Gretchen was fantastic...Austin was phenomenal...but Lane has them both beat. Much Love and HUGSHUGSHUGSHUGS. ...And yes I am going to give you hell about this in our work emails, lol. |
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