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Day 28; Unhappy Austin
Topic Started: Feb 6 2013, 12:01 AM (26 Views)
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Wow. All that drama before the challenge. So much that I couldn't even send all the message before it started there was so much going on.

And then the vote. And the craziness there.

And then the hate mail that follows. THIS IS WHY I AM NOT A VILLAIN. I really can't do this. I really can't hurt people like this. I don't care what Erinn and Kim say to Holly. I care what they say to me. And it bothers me like you can't believe that I hurt them.

I know, dear reader, that i was gonna vote one of them out anyway.

I really think my plan was to take Holly and Kim to the finals. I don't think that is possible anymore.

I have made my bed and I have to lie in it - I have to put on my big man panties...

I'll be looking for a move to make to correct this.

On the one hand - I have made 3 enemies tonight. Enemies that I deeply care about. And I am working with 2 people I don't trust in Ken and Sugar. But what was my choice - to force a tie? And revote? What then?

I am deeply bothered by what happened tonight - the game got super ugly.

And once again - I have NO IDEA what to do next.

Holly will NEVER GO BACK to Koblenz. She swears that Kim and Erinn were gunning for her. Why?

And the worst of the worst.... Tanya and Holly want Erinn out next. Erinn asked for some magic. Let's see what I have...

Maybe my Sugar Frosti Flakes alliance can save the day.

If I were a reall villain - I'd blow all these people off. I'd play my game. But there is real guilt in the happenings of tonight. I knew I wouldn't be proud of playing the game this way.

So - sure - I can make it to the end. But it won't be worth it to be there with people I don't adore.

I love Holly so much - but I gotta tell it true in my confessional. I lost a little respect for her tonight.

My problem is I love too many people. I can't go to the end with Lydia AND Holly AND Erinn and Kim. I was going to have to pick eventually.

I hope I picked right. Because I don't think I can go back.

I'm playing the sympathy - I was duped card. Good grief. Let's just compound half truths with more half truths... Maybe I'll convince myself that I'm 100% honest...

I am playing this season in a Machiavellian fashion. And if I was watching this on TV - I would HATE me!
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Perhaps you would be ratings gold.


Ya never know......




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I am trying to leave every door open. Never let them close. EVER! Holly has doubled down on BFA. Maybe that's the right thing, maybe it isn't.... we'll see

But I've got to try to get Kim and Erinn back on my side.

See if I can get the Sugar Frosti Flakes Alliance together.

No matter what happens from here on out - this game is going to be ugly. With betrayal after betrayal. No easy votes at all.

And Holly probably thinks there may not be a double vote now - but my running back to Kim and Erinn is to make sure if there is a retaliatory vote for last night that rises up in a double elimination, that it goes against someone besides me... Sorry Holly. I'm just protecting myself.

So - If I can still have alliances with:

Erinn & Kim
Frosti & Sugar
Lydia & Holly & Tanya

The only person I don't have is Ken.

It's gonna be IMPOSSIBLE to get the target on him now.

You know I hate being the swing vote - but look at that math - and I can easily be the swing vote AGAIN! I've done it to myself again.

So I need to seriously think about:

1. Who will take me to the end with them
2. Who are the biggest threats that have to go
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Stirring the pot again. Let's get this target onto Ken. no whammies, no whammies... STOP!

[BIG BUCKS] $5,000 and an EXTRA SPIN!

Very soon no one is EVER going to believe a thing I say.

Honestly - I'm surprised if they do now...
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Seriously - only here can you change your alliance EVERY SINGLE DAY and get away with it. Maybe I never changed it - I just made more....

Kim seriously said if I get to the end, I'm winning this thing...

HAHAHAHA.

If they only knew...

Good lord - nobody is going to respect me when this is over.

How many alliances have I had now:

Final 2
Lydia
Erinn
Holly
Kim

Final 3
Frosti & Sugar (yeah - there's no commitment on that yet)
Lydia & Tanya
Holly & Kim
Erinn & Kim
Matty & Rodger

Final 4
Lydia, Tanya & Holly
Holly, Erinn & Kim

Final 5
Frosti, Erinn, Kim & TBD
Erinn, Kim, Holly & Danielle

I need another one - maybe I missed one... because that's 13 - that can't be good...
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:D At least you've taken it seriously when I warn people at the beginning not to overlook or take any player for granted.

Better to have too many alliances than none at all, right?
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