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Day 35; Redefining victory
Topic Started: Feb 12 2013, 11:51 PM (67 Views)
Austin
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It is quite clear that my strategy has failed. I cannot be evil. I am not a villain.

Ok - so I had a strategy to make every alliance I possibly could - great - I'm a success at always telling everyone the truth.

I'm not lying in my messages to Kim Erinn and Frosti. Somebody will be tempted to jump ship...

But as soon as Lydia is out of this game, I will make them vote me out. I am that serious about getting her out. Her behavior cannot be rewarded.
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Allow me to quote YOU from your Day 33 Confessional:

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And then Austin lays it all out. The fake character. The 15 alliances. The heart to heart conversations with every single player. I've got a direct phone line to everybody here. I know what everyone is thinking. What everyone is planning. Imagine the look on Holly and Lydia's face when they hear that. How's that for playing a strategic game. They have NO IDEA the level to which I am playing this game.


After all this time..............is "Austin" going to "Gretchen" himself out of the game?

I have to admit, I'm surprised to hear that with all the work you've put in to making it to the end and wanting to win the game.



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I know. We'll see what happens.

But I did have a big rubber band slap back to "Gretchen" tonight. I just couldn't treat people the way Lydia does.

The question I have to come terms with is - is what I am doing so very different from Lydia. She does it to their face - I do it behind their backs.

"Lydia" is a certifiable sociopath. And I cannot forgive her behavior. I have a message from her in my inbox with no intention of reading it. It's like a Christmas present just sitting there.

But I know she tracks those messages. Sees if they read them.

And as much as she got to me tonight - I am getting to her. And the more messages she sends me the better.

Leave all those white boxes. Let her know I won't take it.

Let that crazy bitch send messages to me through holly.

And I'll play the pity card to the hilt with holly. I'll manipulate her back over to my side. I'll make her vote with me.

I still don't know who the final 3 is - maybe I'm in it maybe I bail.

If I was betting, I'd put money on Kim Erinn and Austin though...

But if the question is would I consider quitting to guarantee that Lydia was eliminated? Yes - I would. I haven't felt about a player in survivor like this since Russell hantz. She makes me want to drink sour milk, shit it out, eat it and vomit it onto a pizza to serve just for her... I'm a Scorpio - I said it - and I haven't been this pissed off in a long long time...

He'll hath no fury like an Austin scorned.... I'm upping the ante on my manipulation... Then we'll see what comes of it.

Lydia will soften her tone and apologize
Holly will be back by my side
Frosti will stay true to Koblenz

But I do know one door closed tonight. My path out of the maze is clearer...

There - you feel like you got me back on track?

"Lydia" may be a sociopath.... But "Austin" is a psychopath....
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Austin,Feb 13 2013
12:32:45 AM
But if the question is would I consider quitting to guarantee that Lydia was eliminated? Yes - I would.

Would you not prove the same point by wanting to get to the end and winning?

That would be a pretty big thing to shove in someone's face.

Why go through weeks and weeks of strategic thinking only to bail at the end?

In some ways, isn't that what you (kind of) did last season? (((though accidentally during that epic F4 vote)))

I'm just trying to follow your mindset here.




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Clearly the only way to get her out is to outlast her.

I just say - as a bargaining chip - if Frosti feels his position is in danger - that perhaps he would feel safer if he had someone ready to bail to keep him loyal.

So the sentiment is heartfelt and at the same time the offer is strategic. Does that make sense? If I did choose to bail, I'd make the girls vote me out. And they wouldn't. So perhaps it's a little empty... But a girl can dream. That'd be a crazy play. But no one would just walk...

And Hell no - I don't want that bitch to beat me.

I won't get "Ramona'd" again. One crazy bitch a season is enough. Thank god no one is posting music videos...
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he he, There's a trip down memory LANE....


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Yeah - so Holly is all over a final three with Kim and I... in words....

OK - sure. I believe you. I mean you haven't voted with me for the past 4 or 5 votes.... but sure... we're super tight...

No - I don't believe a single word anybody says anymore. I can't let myself believe anyone. Lydia has proven that you cannot put your trust in anyone in this game. The only person you can count on is yourself.

The only good thing about the next step is that everyone is a threat that is left in this game - except for Frosti - but he deserves to be here - he's played very well.

Clearly Lydia and Erinn are the biggest - because they are challenge threats.
I am just because people think I am nice - it's clear I'm not. But they won't know until it's over.
Holly because she at least makes moves.
And Kim because everyone loves Momma Kim.

If Lydia wins immunity tonight - I'd like to think that it is Frosti or Holly going home. But you never know.

I sure hope it's Lydia at last. We can finally have some peace.
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Man - I hate seeing Sugar's name in black and not purple. She didn't deserve that last night.

It'd be interesting to know what is going through Lydia's mind. I know she thinks I'll just send her a message again and everything will be ok. Nope.

I have 4 other friends left in this game... That's 3 more than you've got. And if you win immunity tonight... again... you'll have NO ONE.

I hope she does get voted out so I can read the message she sent. Because as long as she is in this game I WILL NOT give her the satisfaction of reading it.

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I can be the bigger man.

I apologized to Lydia. I can't be mad at her forever. And I have been stewing all day. I'm still mad about it. And she'll never understand why what she did was hurtful. I have to let it go. I have to realize it is just a game.

And even if she can't see that the words she uses are (take your pick of words):
- Demeaning
- Badgering
- Abusive
- Harsh
- Bitter
- Bullying

I can at least say calling her a bitch was not fair. I wanted to stoop to her level and show her what it was like to talk to someone on that level. But she has to play her game and I have to play mine.

Whether she is one or not - is not my place to say. Get the log out of your own eye before you get the splinter out of your brother's...
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Here's how tonight plays out.

1. If Lydia loses tonight - she's gone. Man - I want to call in sick to rehearsal so I can win this challenge and see her gone. I'm this close to calling in.

2. If Lydia wins - it's either Holly outright, or it'll be a 3-3 tie. Knowing how much Lydia hates Erinn - I'd have to think she's got Frosti voting for Erinn. We'll see how a 3-3 tie comes down... who knows it could be 3 Holly and 3 Austin...

3. Sunday - I'm in for the challenge on Sunday. Same drill for Lydia - lose and your out.

4. If Lydia wins again - the vote should be for Frosti. No tie. As Erinn - Kim - Austin vote together.

5. On Tuesday - It's Lydia...

6. Or it will probably be Erinn as backup.

7. On Thursday - It's Lydia....

8. Or it's her choice on who she takes to the end.

Still hoping for a final 3 - but I don't think that's gonna happen.
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Nope - I can tell - it's absolutely me tonight.

The curse of 'you're gonna win if you make the finals' catches me again.

Sucks that I can't compete tonight. Can't even save myself.

But this is the night. Mark my words.

Frosti and Lydia are talking way too much.

Holly and Kim are talking way to much.

Not gonna surprise me at all to be sent home tonight. And for Erinn and Austin to be on the outside looking in now.
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Austin,Feb 13 2013
05:34:26 PM
But this is the night. Mark my words.

Anything in particular that has you at this conclusion?

People's tone in PMs change or anything?

Frequency, etc. etc. etc.?
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It's too quiet. The sentences are really short. And watching who's online together and in personal messages.

Frosti and Lydia are together almost an hour this afternoon.... That only means one thing...
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I'm here. Jerome is giving me an extra break to play the challenge.
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Tell "The Jerome Show" that Brett says hi :D
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