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Day 42; Last Day in the Maze
Topic Started: Feb 20 2013, 11:24 AM (19 Views)
Austin
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This final 3 is pretty amazing. Three people that wanted to be together in the end.

Makes it tough - because there aren't really any cards to play against the other two. I'm not certain there is any further strategy to employ at this point.

The only card I have left is reinforcing that the others don't like me - don't think I should be here.

But I can't say why - I can't say too much - or they don't necessarily trust that it was always my plan to go to the final 2 with each of them.

So I'll take every opportunity to apologize for being unlikable. To realize that I don't have a chance to win this game.

And hope my relationships and last minute usage of the 'pity card' work in my favor.

Of course, if I can win immunity tomorrow - I have a HUGE decision to make. And I really have no idea what I would. Right now, I think I'd take Erinn and tell everyone it's because I want to go with the strongest player...

But I'm standing in the middle of the maze you dropped us into. And for 42 days I haven't moved an inch. I've just watched everyone else run around and wear themselves out and narrowed down what is the path out of here. Now, there are only two paths remaining to choose from. One gets me to the finish. And the other keeps me eternally looking for the cheese.

So I'll stand here for one more day. And then I move to the finish. I believe I've mapped the maze correctly and know the way out. There just aren't any more cards to play because turning these two on each other isn't going to happen. I have to believe that they see each other as more threatening - are more committed to me - and have slight trust issues with the other.

Any other action I take could seriously backfire on me.

So caution. Pity. Self-loathing. And an abundance of love. That's the prescription for the final day.

Erinn will 100% take me to the final two with her. I know that.
Kim - I'm not so sure... but I think it's likely.

Of course - they've promised each other a final two as well.

We really have a love triangle here.

Gonna be interesting.
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Well - I guess I have a 2/3 chance of making the finals. Wish it was 100%

Not so sure that Kim will take me. Her recent messages have me reading between the lines.
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What have some of those messages been like?


(or just copy them here if you want)
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They aren't too bad. But you can see that the words if I win I'm taking you aren't there. It's like there's a set up for us to not be there together.

I know she's thinking Erinn won't take her to the end. And maybe she won't. But especially the line about me being able to win immunity - almost sounds like I need it.

It's ok. And I'm not campaigning against these two. it's tough because I want to. But with these two - I really think that would backfire. So I've got to keep them both thinking I'm taking them so they feel like they need to reciprocate...

Or perhaps it's just paranoia. You can tell from what she says - we do have a very tight bond. And I am pretty sure that Erinn has not treated Kim like I have.

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I want to thank you for standing by me from day 1. I never could have gotten this far without you sweety. The 3 of us, have stayed strong from the very beginning, and it is just so awesome that we have made it here.

I love you and I just want to thank you for always being here for me, and for calming me down when I needed it! I am very fortunate to have met you, and to have you as a friend! If for some reason I am not in the Finals, I just want you to know, do not be sad. We have made it this far, and for that I am thankful. There can only be 2 in the finals, and absolutely no hard feelings from me, if I can not be there!


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I think it is ok to say this. i have made some dear friends in survivor land. I have every intention of staying in touch with you for as long as you will allow! I am not sure where you live, and I know we can not discuss that yet, but I have aphone plan that should allow us to talk.

And if it doesn't cover it, there is always internet, and mail! I am blessed to have found you. As for immunity, if I could win yesterday, I have faith that you can win tomorrow 
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I just want to say...

I WAS playing a character with these people. But I WAS NOT playing them. The relationships built with Erinn and Kim mean everything to me. And it does scare me to have to tell them my whole character has been a lie. How can I expect them to think anything I ever said was true and honest and real when my whole character was a fabrication. The foundation was built on lies. But there is real truth inside.

I hope they know that Austin-isms aside - there has always been a special bond with those two.

(And for that matter, with Holly and Lydia)

You can't talk to the levels we did together and not have a tight bond. So I made Final 2 deals with everybody - ok - I played the game - you know I fully expected to get caught. That doesn't mean I wasn't sincere in my friendship with each of them.

I hope they all understand that after the game is over.
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