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| Topic Started: Feb 22 2013, 12:52 AM (13 Views) | |
| Austin | Feb 22 2013, 12:52 AM Post #1 |
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Made this post in the Jury House - and not sure if it breaks the rules, so just in case it needs to be edited - I am posting here for people to read later. I try not to say too much because Brobst says we cannot talk about these things. For very much real. I have so many alliances - like Sugar Frosti Flakes, and one of my favorite names - SAFE (I will not say who was in this in case this is forbidden by BROBST). But you put last member in and becomes FAKES. I always think this is filled with irony. I always think Lydia and Tanya would laugh very much at this and slap me for not realizing it. But I do realize. Problem is I truly love Holly and Kim and Lydia and Erinn. And with BFA, Tanya makes 6 strong alliance. But Lydia and Tanya do not want to work with Kim and Erinn. An Kim and Erinn do not want to work with Lydia and Tanya. Such amazing ways that individual players come together yet work apart. I almost let BFA take over at this point - I do Tanya I do - but you know I have trust issues with Ken. And this day Ken says strange things that do not seem like commits. Only that he wants to fool me into think I am safe with him. And I realize 6 I have together is best for my safety. All votes then are greedy for my safety. Rodger, Matty, Becky, Ken are easiest because I can put targets on them and they do not feel safe like others. I think I must keep this six that I trust to final 6, but they will not play together. I know Holly can confirm this to you. I try very hard to keep names of Lydia or Tanya from coming up. And night that Ken is voted - original name is Lydia and I convince everyone to leave Lydia alone and change to Ken - I do try to keep BFA alive this time. But I am not noble. I do it for my own safety this day. Not for long term plan to very end. But if BFA makes final 4 - I am happy also. Does this make sense? Not a very good answer I know. Then because I do not have Frosti or Sugar in alliance yet, I begin to talk to them. And I create Sugar Frosti Flakes alliance because I make up name that is very funny to me. And Sugar is very right when she says this - I have very strong intentions to make this real final 3. I think Sugar is very very special - I connect with her as we talk - I like her very much. And there is great potential in Sugar, Frosti, Austin final 3. I just keep more options. But for very truth. I make plans one day at time. One vote at time. And I do not think further. I make at least 17 alliances (2s,3s,4s & 5s)- I stop counting after this. Because in planning to end of road you end with no options if someone takes your ally away - like taking Becky away from Ken. And I want all options available so I always have way to go. I do not know if I am not supposed to say all of this here so I leave confession for you to read later. In this way I was villain. I am not bold to do it where people can see. I tell Lydia many times I am coward. And I think many times I am. But Holly - answer to your question. Yes - of everyone in this game. You are THE ONLY ONE I really mean when I say I want to be final two with you. I tell many people I want final 2 with them - you all shake heads and flip fingers at me as you read this - I know. And I mean them while it is good for me. But you truly were different to me - our relationship was different than any other - deeper. I value you. So I just take one step each day. And solve each day as it comes. And I play numbers. This is really reason why I get so angry at Lydia. And I do apologize again Lydia. I can never apologize enough for things I say. But Lydia tells me I do not understand math. I do not understand numbers. I do not understand game. And I think - yes I do... Because I manage these numbers every day. And I lose my mind because person I love very much yells at me and says I am stupid. But it is ok - I overreact. And I am sorry Lydia. I truly much am. I go on my own 'raving bitch' rampage in confession that I am not proud of. For record - and for Rodger - if I win immunity today. I will have taken Erinn to F2. I will have taken her and say I take strongest competitor to end. In hopes of swaying jury. I truly think jury hates me while still in game. And that I must do something to show good quality. Plus I think I can persuade at final to get votes no matter who I stand with. This was my intention at least. But zombies eat my brains and now I will never know. Haha. OK - I think I break too many rules. I close mouth now. |
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| Austin | Feb 22 2013, 12:11 PM Post #2 |
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In case I want to add this later to the jury house... And with all that I love of many players. Sugar is person I wish I play with much longer. She is a tough and smart biscuit. She very much wants to shake things up and get herself in position of power. I just think no one really listens to her until Frosti and Me. And when I talk to Sugar, I do not feel like she leaves anything out. She says everything. I like this. Holly talks same way to me. Because I make my decisions based on what is NOT said. Not what IS said. If this makes sense. For examples - Matty NEVER talks game with me. His phrase we only watch backs of each other is very clear that he does not wish to work with me. Rodger in trying to confirm alliance does not confirm. Does not assure me that we vote together. I know Rodger is most trustworthy of everyone in game. This says much. Ken says to me only things like 'we are fine.' 'I like you austin.' This is not same thing as I will not vote for you. Even Tanya - who is very smart - gives me interrogate when Lydia wants to make BFA. To be certain I am sincere. And I think - these are questions of person who does not trust me - I must gain trust and be very careful because she does not feel good in this decision 100%. This game for me is all about things that are not said. That is what is important to discover for me. Read in middle of lines. And leave no one out. Make every connection. Because you never know which one you truly need. |
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| BROBST | Feb 22 2013, 01:51 PM Post #3 |
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I don't mind anything you share in the Jury House. And it's quite fun that you're keeping the Austin "character" going. And I LOVE those points you just made to those people in your previous post here. Really good points that I think they need to hear so they can have further proof of possible mistakes they've made. I like when people CORRECT THEIR MISTAKES
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