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Gearing up for the third challenge...; ...and nervous as hell!
Topic Started: Jul 12 2017, 02:22 PM (23 Views)
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Cork narrowly missed having to go to tribal council last night in the Wheel of Fortune-style immunity challenge. Fortunately, I contributed to my team by getting us points with COLCANNON and LUCK in the final round. Thank you, Ryan Murphy and American Horror Story, for securing me the "COLCANNON" win. And, quite frankly, I even surprised myself by achieving those wins. Hopefully my tribemates appreciated this; Dave was the only one who directly acknowledged me for it. Although I think Rudy feels self-conscious because he didn't score any points in that challenge, so he was trying not to bring attention to himself. But why didn't Joel say anything?

I was prepared for the possibility of tribal council, if indeed we'd had to go. What I was NOT prepared for, however, was to maintain any level of confidence that I would necessarily remain in the game. This whole time, I can't get the paranoia out of my head that Dave, Joel, and Rudy might all be conspiring against me. Do they view me as a social threat for down the road? Or even as a possible immunity threat, if we're all competing once there's individual immunity?

So, although I had no expectations that we'd necessarily avoid tribal council, I also had no expectations that I'd survive a tribal council. I'm hungry to SIGNIFICANTLY improve my standing compared to the last time I played...and I'm trying to keep enough of a level head to keep that hunger from becoming insatiable.

Rudy and Dave sound like they're willing to take the lead with the next challenge. Which is fortunate, since I don't own a SmartPhone with Internet access. And, even if I did, I'd be mega-skittish about our win or loss resting upon my ability to print-and-upload something correctly. That doesn't mean I still feel confident that I'll be safe if we *do* have to go to the next tribal council...because I don't. But at least I'm not in a position where my tribemates are trying to pressure me into using technology for which I have virtually no knowledge or experience. :unsure:

I also don't know if a potential tribe-swap/shuffle is a good thing or a bad thing, for me. They always say try to make lemonade out of lemons; but, in such a scenario, I have no clue as to who I'll end up with if it happens. That's why, for now, I feel the only logical thing I can do -- in my current position -- is to maintain a decent rapport with Joel, Dave, and Rudy alike.

I was thinking about Diane, earlier today. There's something familiar about her. Not sure if this is good or bad... :o

Regardless of what alliances Zeke and Todd have forged over on their tribe, I hope they're still open to the possibility of working with me, at least for a little while, if we're reshuffled into a new tribe together.

That brings me to my final conundrum: Joel. I feel he and I have developed what is a strong rapport of trust and openness. Obviously, everybody probably has paranoia in the back of their minds whenever they form an alliance with someone -- that the person is playing them. I'm no exception to this weakness. It has crossed my mind as far as Joel (just like it has in regard to Rudy and Dave). But I sense no ominously detectable red-flags when it comes to Joel, and I want to be careful that don't create any where/if there are none. So my intention, at present, is to strategize with Joel to the degree where he knows he will have a future ally in me, as the game moves on...but, at the same time, not coming off as too much of a personal threat to him from his own P.O.V.

It's such a delicate balancing act. If only I had Kim Spradlin with me, right now, as my spirit animal... :(

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Hi, Kim... :D
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*waves*

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