| What Would Jim Carrey Do?; aka Replacing-Stress-With-Logic | |
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| Bubba | Jul 23 2017, 12:48 PM Post #1 |
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Here we go, headed into another tribal immunity challenge. And this is one that I'd volunteered to sit out (along with Zeke, who will be absent reportedly due to offline commitments). Now I'm beginning to think that might have been a mistake on my part. Because I keep getting this sneaking suspicion that it will be some sort of "match game" involving images/avatars -- and one of those avatars might be that damn mysterious shamrock that Lucky had alluded to in his very first posted limerick. But I can't take back my decision, so I just have to hope my team can pull out a win. And maybe it was all for the best that I sit out? If it happened to be a challenge that I could perform well at, would that just put a bigger target on my back in the other players' minds (especially from the P.O.V.s of the Limericks)? Or if it was a challenge I'd botched up, would my tribe have targeted me tonight for that reason as a "dealbreaker"...??? So if we have to go to tribal council: even though everyone says they'd be voting for Leann, my guard is still up. For some reason, I really think it might be me. The pieces I have as possible evidence: A.) in a private message to me, Leann seemed to backpedal on her earlier sentiments against Ozzy; now, maybe she was just doing it to hedge her bets? Or, alternately, did someone (Joel?) alert her to me having thrown Leann under the bus for trying to throw Ozzy under the bus? But then, in her very next message, Leann reverted right back to sneakily trying to plant Ozzy's name in my head as a target. Yeah, I see you, Leann! And then I promptly ratted her out to Ozzy (as far as her gunning for him)...so I'm hoping that gains me Ozzy's trust, if it hadn't already. B.) Zeke privately expressed to Rudy that he was a little worried that some of the things I've said to him might have made me seem "shady." So will he and Todd have second thoughts about moving forward with me in the game? C.) my purported allies have probably picked up on how badly I want to make the merge/jury; are they going to consciously try to deny me that because they're afraid I'd become either schizo-paranoid or lazy/slacker-like beyond that stage of the game? Because I truly wouldn't...I'd just be able to have a lot more fun playing with perhaps a clearer head. D.) Vanessa Rousso may have possessed my body -- yet, I still don't know how to play poker! The other perplexing element is how to navigate our voting bloc. By all indications, Todd/Zeke/Rudy/Diane all seem to be on good terms with me (as do Ozzy and Joel). But if you look a little deeper than that: it appears to me as though there are conflicting sentiments within our bloc over who we would trust as a sixth member, if we were forced to vote out someone other than Leann. From what I've gathered, Ozzy and Joel don't really trust each other; each of them has very subtly tried to plant the other one's name in my head. I think they'd both get rid of Leann; but if Leann isn't an option tonight -- or if we have to vote out someone else after she's gone -- then I suspect Joel and Ozzy might be gunning for each other. To add to that complexity: Todd/Zeke seem to trust Joel more than Ozzy. Whereas, Rudy/Diane seem to trust Ozzy more than Joel. So if Leann isn't an option to vote out, unless someone in the group finds a consensus alternative vote (and hopefully that target won't be me!!!), I'd have to pick a side, which could really complicate the notion of us working together as a unit past the merge. Unless we can stay focused on taking out "Adam's Angels" before having to turn on each other. If we lose tonight, I just have this horrible feeling that Limerick (if they win) is going to receive the chance to bestow some Magical Horseshoe of Immunity upon Leann. Because it would be just our (bad!) luck that it would be the one person who we all seemingly want to vote out who gets saved by the other tribe. And since I most likely won't be able to compete to win it, this would be the worst possible time for that advantage to get trotted out in terms of my game. Unless, of course, they're all playing me. Rudy/Diane could be secretly working with "Adam's Angels." And/or, Todd and Zeke could have expressed doubts about me to Ozzy, Leann, or Brooke (before she was traded)...and Leann is just "playing naive" in order to throw me off. This makes me think of the 1998 Jim Carrey movie The Truman Show. It's funny because I didn't see the movie itself until 2002; however, even before the movie was written/produced, as a child I had always had this scenario playing out as a figment of my warped imagination: what if everyone in the world was conspiring to just play one huge prank on me, in every single action they took or every word they uttered to me? Yes, I realize that's absolutely preposterous and surreal. The logical part of my brain knows that's never been the case. But I was a little kid at the time; we all remember how our brains worked when we were children. Not very coherently. And I believe one big reason why I constructed that imagery in my head, as a little kid, was because although I was very "inwardly-gregarious" as a kid, I was also very outwardly socially-awkward and had pretty much zero friends in school. Zero *real* friends, anyway. So, I really had to laugh when, 10-15 years later, I actually got the chance to see a movie that utilized something very close to this premise of my own childhood-conceived inanity. But playing this game sort of feels like how Truman Burbank would have felt if he had known his life was being chronicled and videotaped around-the-clock much earlier than he'd ended up discovering in the movie. How many of them are just waiting for the chance to discard me because it's an easy move to make, and I may have unknowingly revealed something to someone that I shouldn't have? I obviously can't ask my tribemates any of these types of questions...because then they will think I'm Looney Tunes for certain -- and vote me out just because they'll come to view me as a loose cannon. So, if I'm wrong about such an outlandish scenario, I just have to use the information I've gathered and apply it in the most rational way possible. Every interaction I have with every person on this tribe is measured and nuanced by me in such a way that I'm considering how it can get me farther in the game itself. That's why it just KILLS ME that a fingerful of people who possibly haven't really been playing very hard are poised to make it much deeper into this game than me. I'm fully prepared that we might lose tonight, and, to add to that setback, Leann might be granted immunity. So then I'd probably have to make a decision between Joel and Ozzy. There might be no easy choice. I just have to go with my gut, in terms of who approaches me during the 15-minute voting period. Hmmm, now that I think about it...maybe it *IS* better that I'm one of the two Dubliners sitting out tonight? The way I see it, here's all I can do tonight: tell myself to remain calm, stay poised, respond to all messages I receive, and try my absolute best to trust my gut instincts. |
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| BROBST | Jul 23 2017, 06:43 PM Post #2 |
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THANKS FOR THE UPDATE, BUBBA!
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| Julie | Sep 3 2017, 04:08 PM Post #3 |
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'Adam's Angels'? :rolleyes: Lol, I don't know why reading that irks me so much. |
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| Bubba | Sep 3 2017, 11:21 PM Post #4 |
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It wasn't meant to be belittling, and I hope you don't view that as a personal attack on your game, Christie. If I remember correctly, at the time we were being told by Diane and Rudy how much of an alpha Adam appeared to be positioning himself as, on Limerick. So there were various discussions amongst Dubliners (and probably quite a few that I wasn't even involved with) over who might be the next person voted out if Limerick went to tribal council again. There seemed to be two schools-of-thought: either Adam had strong alliances with the rest of you on Limerick, or Adam would be an easy target for all of you. Keep in mind: those of us originally on Dublin had no real idea what all of your interpersonal dynamics were on Limerick, aside from what Rudy and Diane told us. So this was all speculation and spitballing on my part. If anything, "Adam's Angels" was a backhanded dig at Adam himself -- since I was inclined to believe Rudy's and Diane's accounts that Adam felt he was running the show over there...and that he might end up finding himself blindsided. I honestly felt the chances were less likely that Adam would actually make the merge...but I think the consensus was that, if he somehow did manage to make the merge, Adam would be an easy first consensus vote-out. |
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| Julie | Sep 4 2017, 07:37 AM Post #5 |
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I don't at all view it as an attack, Anthony. It's just amusing to me given Adam's style of communicating that they thought he was in charge of anything. And talking to Lister and Paul at the merge and realizing how much they didn't like Adam made me realize we had made the right move in voting him out. I had just felt bad because he had given me some info and had my back when I really needed it. |
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