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This is my tale
Topic Started: Oct 30 2012, 03:28 PM (190 Views)
Calmerica
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Freedom isn't free
Greetings. Its been a long time.

I'm not going to pretend we're all friends since everyone hates me and I won't give some big speech about founding the region and the forums and all that. There's only one reason for this post and after that you won't hear from me again... not that you have been, it's been like what, nine months or something? The lie perpetually told across the game by some of you-- no, lets not do that, by Shanix, is quite hurtful. But I won't bag on him too much, even though I have conversations documented with three members of this region that all agree with me in stating he's a dick and a moron. Maybe he's changed now, I don't know, that's not what I'm here to talk about.

To clarify "who I am" we take this back to 2010. August 31st to be exact. I started this nation, Calmerica, after roughly one year away from both CyberNations and NationStates. I was 14-almost-15 at the time, and indicated as such in my posts, which I can prove. I registered using the email calebdog95@gmail.com, later changed to my updated email, caleb.mccon@gmail.com. I always indicated that I was that young, in high school, and had career hopes of being a writer.

Around March 2011? I'm not really sure when exactly, but I joined a cool RP that had every character take on a newly deployed Marine. My brother is a Marine. He really is 26, married to a girl named Isabel, and really did move east to take care of her parents, and really is a former recruiter who now works in private security. This isn't him. Why he didn't state that, or give his real name is beyond me, maybe he didn't want anyone knowing who he was or just knows Caleb is a cooler name, doesn't matter. Why I didn't say anything will be covered soon. In any case, I asked for his advice on the RP, and let him post some things, and man it was good. Because he was a marine he had all the cool terminology and realism I was looking for. Eventually he was helping me a lot and kind of liked the game. We did RPs together, such as that Breakup of the US or whatever it was called. He just took over since I was in school basically full time and he had a bit of free time. That was where he "revealed" he was a Marine. And really he didn't jump up and down, as I recall he said something in the OOC about Iraq being whatever, and then someone asked if he was in Iraq. I mean why not, he had no idea I had a persona built with other alliances and on the forums as a teenager. Honestly, I'm shocked to hell nobody stood up and yelled bullshit because my profile stated "16, high school student, wants to be a writer or some shit". By that point he did a lot more than I, especially when RPing war since he was way better at describing that stuff. I did sports RPs and focused on CyberNations, where I was the Secretary of Recruitment for an alliance called "NATO", which I could get some verification screenshots probably even though I'm part of a different alliance now.

Now, when he left to take care of Isabel's parents, it was really, really difficult for him. He didn't want to do anything with NationStates anymore, reasonably so. After his goodbye post, I just took over again, not really having been paying attention to what was happening. Once I saw he had been doing the whole Marine thing a lot, especially here on these forums, I realized it'd be pretty fuckin stupid to give this story I'm telling you now since I knew Shanix and whoever else he convinced would yell "fake" and then "gtfo", just like he did before ever trying to figure out the truth.

I kept up the whole "Marine" persona. It was badass. I wasn't ashamed of my age or anything, but my brother is my hero so why change a good thing? There was a lot to keep up. Lies to keep up, I suppose, if you want to look at it that way. I don't give a shit how you all look at it. I don't have to be posting this, I want to, I'm ashamed and I want the air to be clear. I want you all to know. If you choose not to believe this, Shanix, that's fine, I hope one day your own ignorance and asshatery catches up with you. Anyway, back on point. So I kept everything up, until one day, I learned my brother was going back to Afghanistan. He got offered a job with this private security team thing, whatever, I really don't understand it. Point is, he was leaving. This, I figured, was my bow out. I would email everyone and tell him hey I'm leaving, and than just not play NS anymore with Calmerica. Easy peasy. The "problem" is that I emailed Aq with my email, the email I always use, the only one I registered with, caleb.mccon@gmail.com. In my signature was a link to gridirongrit.com, a website I started and used to write at (all I do now is web upkeep, as school has really inhibited my writing time, but I do still maintain a blog which I'm sure you could find if you give a shoot). All I could think was Ohhhhh shitttttt. I made the stupid mistake of trying to cover it up at this point rather than just type this story, and then discard myself into the abyss of forgotten memory.

Now at that point, as if the timing couldn't be better, I got a good job and lost interest in some of my internet hobbies. I stopped RPing, stopped playing CyberNations, etc. My nation went away for a long time, until, whatever, a month or so ago I think, whenever it was I rebooted it (really cool, like my first day back got the Zombie easter egg. I think you have to be dead a certain amount of time). All my puppets are dead as well, Vastagraph, Caleeb which was given to someone but may be dead, Samsungistan...whatever others there were. Not really important. But I messaged Aq and asked about UEN upon coming back, he gave me the password, and just told me to be cool about since Shanix was saying all kinds of shit about me. He even messaged the other founder at gridirongrit.com and let him know I was "an impostor" and all this shit. Appreciate that by the way. Rather than be active, "reclaim" the Presidency or whatever else, I've been looking for another region to join. An active one, one that RPs, a small community, basically everything I/ brother had in mind when I/ us started this thing. The forums are really dead anyhow, so God only knows if any of you would find this without that link on the RMB info deal.

I would like you to notice how I never screwed up the forums (you can't actually take away my admin powers), never "reigned fury" or anything like that, and never screwed up UEN on NationStates, even though I still have all the admin privileges there as well. I don't feel any hate, and would like none from you either. Once I'm settled into my new region (not Silver Isles either, way worse than expected when I joined), I'll be active again, and you may see me around. We may end up in an RP together, so before shit hits the fan so hard to the roof caves in, I wanted everyone to be aware of this. I want everyone to know.

I fucked up, I'm sorry. But I didn't make up anything about my brother (who, yes, will remain nameless at his request, since he is pretty damn pissed). The pictures he posted of himself and his wife are all real (I mean really, there was a LOT to have "made up"). Please also know that I won't be joining back any time soon, or probably ever. Especially as long as Shanix keeps playing, lets not pretend he and I were ever friends, or that every one of us ever liked him a whole lot. For real. Let's not fake that. Maybe he's different or changed or whatever now, but back then when he tried to push his agenda against me as President and get me out of office by force, and called me a guy who hates America and the guy who is trying to be a dictator, and EDITED other peoples posts when I had the decency to make him a moderator... that guy was a real dickhead. I have no desire to come back to that. But if anyone has any actual questions, I'll try and answer them. Any holes you think? Grammatical errors up there? Let me know and I'll do my absolute best to clear it up. Feel free to remove the link on the region's page once people are aware this is here, but don't bury it please, don't delete this topic, don't be that guy. I put that there because it didn't look like anyone kept the forums up anymore.

If we meet again, out in NS, fine. If anyone has the desire to follow me or remain friends or whatever, please don't. Not that I presume you do, but don't. I'd rather have a completely clean slate.

A couple other notes:
Don't ask "ok who posted" and "did you say", I don't recall who exactly said what. Most everything on the forums here and in the Breakup RP are his.

I, nor my brother, am a homophobe. Noticing some comments on that... absolutely not. I forget ever talking to Meso about being bi, if you were ever offended man, sorry. Calmerica bans homosexuality and I believe God doesn't like it according to the bible, but that doesn't mean they're bad people or people shouldn't be allowed to do whatever. The only homophobic thing I've really ever said is stop posting gay sex on the forums, but, come on. Nobody is directly represented by their nation, that's silly. There's anarchies and psycho dictatorships in this game but nobody believes that should exist in real life.
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Condunum,Jul 19 2011
05:37 PM
I'm not racist, I discriminate equally.
Shanix,Aug 19 2011
08:11 PM
Jesus was the first pirate.  He had a few loaves of bread and some fish, and illegally copied them to feed 500 people.
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Mesoland
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Thank you for the explanation, Cal, and I am glad that you have explained and apologised.

Just to clear up, we never spoke about homosexuality or anything, it was what was said in your sig (you had a list of things you were pro/anti, and one of your anti-topics was homosexuality). I'm not bi or gay myself, but from the context, it looked like the list was a list of your personal views, not IC views, and that annoyed me (because I am pretty pro-homosexual rights). Once again, thanks Cal.
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Calmerica
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I see where you're getting that, and yes, those were IC.
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Condunum,Jul 19 2011
05:37 PM
I'm not racist, I discriminate equally.
Shanix,Aug 19 2011
08:11 PM
Jesus was the first pirate.  He had a few loaves of bread and some fish, and illegally copied them to feed 500 people.
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Aquitayne
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Thank you for clearing the air, hopefully we can all move on from this. Hope to see you around.
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Symphonia
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Hey Cal, I hope you understand that we don't really hate you and we don't want to hate you. I'd like to apologize on behalf of the region for this, because I feel guilty for not standing up with up you back then. So please take care and enjoy life. :)
Deus enim victoriam enim Symphonia
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Calmerica
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Freedom isn't free
I appreciate that Symph. I don't want any hate between us either, because I'm sure I'd react the same way we all switched shoes.
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Diarchal Islands of Calmerica
Condunum,Jul 19 2011
05:37 PM
I'm not racist, I discriminate equally.
Shanix,Aug 19 2011
08:11 PM
Jesus was the first pirate.  He had a few loaves of bread and some fish, and illegally copied them to feed 500 people.
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Shanix
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Perpetuating the lie was a dick move.

But I will apologize since you've come forward with the truth. I'm sorry for being a dick as well. A massive dick.
I'm scared I might be losing you
and I don't know which way to turn
I feel I might be losing you


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